I'm Not Just...

I am more than I've ever been, and less than I will be. Ask me anything, and read with an open mind.

Young The Giant - Islands (Cover) by Sarah Lee

Very lovely.

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The next big video game crash


tonight I’m wanting to put together a video about the “next big video game crash” which I believe many people think is coming right around the corner. I want to collect my thoughts here before I begin, feel free to read or wait until i release the video

back at the end of the ‘atari’ run of video…

I haven’t preordered a game since Assassin’s Creed 3, and I know (on some level) I shouldn’t be preordering Dragon Age: Inquisition. And yeah, if I can swing it I’ll buy the DLC I know will come with it (as long as the game isn’t complete shit). But I only invest in games I think are worth the risk.

Assassin’s Creed, in my opinion, ended with “3” it’s fifth installment. So I will never buy another. Bioshock Infinite I bought on sale. Mass Effect 3, after launch. And as disappointed as I am, I’ll never buy another Halo game because they won’t be on PC and I despise a console.

I don’t like playing into the hype, and I don’t like being swindled. Truly, good games are being made and I don’t mind DLC as long as it expands a story and doesn’t complete it. What we need to do as gamers is prove our metal. Stop buying unfinished Alphas, stop buying games with micro-transactions, stop buying documented broken games, and stop breaking the bank to preorder extra pixels.

It’s simple. Consumers control the market. If we buy it, they will continue to sell. If we stop buying, they find a new model.



The difference between abuse & neglect and genuine love for a child that may be trans.

i will never not reblog this

That…that was my mom.

And she was just put in an ambulance. Literally ten minutes ago. And after helping and making sure she was as comfortable as possible I thought about this. I thought about how none of that mattered when someone was in need.

She may hate me for being trans, she may always love her daughter and not her son, and I may never honestly be able to say I love her…and holy shit that’s a terrible thing to say…but I would never wish her harm.

I will never want her to feel bad, or be left out, or be miserable. I do love her, as a human. She deserves respect and good just like anyone else.

Basically, people like this don’t perceive what they’re doing as bad. They think helping their child fit in is the best thing. We all have our blind spots. So, our goal is not to shame people for being who they are, but simply to be as good and open and educating as we can. Even when we are turned away, we should always be kind.

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Who are you?

What do you want to be when you grow up?

As a young person, I wanted to be the amazing things. A doctor, a lawyer, an Air Force pilot, an astronaut. I had some high hopes. (Of course, even though these careers don’t require anymore dedication than many others, not being one of them seems like you’re less. Isn’t that weird? How much influence we attach to certain professions?)

As an actual grown up, I hate this question. I have no clue what I want to be. I want to be a lot of things.

But the truth is we shouldn’t ask “what” we want to be, but “who” we want to be.

I mean, what we do can be a major part of who we are, but who we are can make what we do matter. And that can be a far more challenging thing to understand. What we do is judged by how much money we make, how prestigious we are, how promoted we are, or how loved we are. What we do is more important than who we are, so we make what we do the definition of who we are, but that is almost never the case.

For example, I’ve worked only in retail. According to my resume I am nothing but that and a sort of freelance writer. But I am a gamer, an author, a computer technician, a reader, an all around geek, and lover of all things beautiful (outdoors, indoors, art, music, people, and so on). I am not designed to work in retail, really. I’m antisocial, a homebody, and desire to do something creative. Though I’m not afraid to go out in the world and be a part of other people’s lives.

So as I’m sitting here, feeling desperately hopeless because I can’t get a job, I am wondering for the first time in my life “who” I want to be.

And I am realizing I want to be special. Not in some “I’m so amazing” sort of way. I honestly don’t think I am special. Which is a crazy kind of logic, isn’t it?

Mostly, I want to be creative in a fashion that gets me noticed. I want an audience, and I want to be surrounded by other creators.

But I want to make a difference. I want to found a charity, and I want to make life better for the less fortunate.

I just don’t know how to do that. Or, I do, but no one seems to want to notice me.

But one day I’ll sit down in front of this computer, I’ll turn on my camera, and I’ll make a video. And from there, who knows what will happen.



SHONDA RHIMES - SCREENWRITER, DIRECTOR, AND PRODUCER, creator of hit TV shows such as “Scandal” (ABC), “Grey’s Anatomy” (ABC), “Private Practice” (ABC), and the forthcoming TV show “How to Get Away with Murder,” starring Viola Davis, which will premiere on ABC on September 25, 2014.

She also wrote screenplays for Introducing Dorothy Dandridge (1999) starring Halle Berry, Crossroads (2001) starring Britney Spears, and The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement (2004) starring Julie Andrews and Anne Hathaway.

In 2007, she was named by TIME Magazine as one of the 100 people who help shape the world. She has been nominated and/or won a few awards including Golden Globe, NAACP’s Image Award, Emmy, Black Reel Award, and WGA Award by the Writers Guild of America.

She also runs her own production company, ShondaLand, which produces the tv shows that ABC has picked up for airing rights.

The Los Angles Times just published a new article, hailing her for building a TV empire in spite of white men running Hollywood.

We just talked about her in my Gender & Leadership class!

I love Shonda Rhimes. Her creations are…incomparable.

But I don’t love Shonda because she’s a black woman in a white man’s world. I love her because she’s amazing, in and of herself. And while I know her life experiences made her so amazing, trying to say “she made it despite the white men” is an insult to her. Because her creations are something those old, white men never could have imagined. Her mind and creative process are something they cannot comprehend, and so they could never create something so wonderful, and that’s why Shonda made it.

Because her mind and experience, how she chose to learn from life, are what make her special. Not that she beat some men in the entertainment industry.

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Awkward Massage - iiSuperwomanii

The laughter is real. #LEH

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Thank You BioWare. For Everything.


It’s 12:27 AM on September 12th in BioWare Edmonton and I’m listening to Das Malefitz by Faunts. I know it’s late, but I’m sure I’m not the only one in the office. We’re shipping a video game. Non-conventional hours are understandable. I’m trying to find a picture of myself on a motorcycle as a toddler to prove a point to the Dragon Age art director, after an evening at the pub and answering emails to finalize details about Montreal Comiccon, Edmonton Expo, and Geek Girl Con.

Also, this will be my last day at BioWare.

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I want to be like this.

Congrats on such a great job, and good luck with the future Jessica.



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